black and white

Monday, October 29, 2007, Monday, October 29, 2007

Going raya tmrrw.
Someone going to leave us soon.
Perjumpaan hari raya is tis week.
Dunearnite is getting nearer too.

stress!hais.

Btw,im sorry syg for the lost card.But i found it.thz to my mama.Haiss.
But im not sure whether it can work.Hope so eh.amin.
the last werds u said really hurt me alots.
But now,its everything fine.Tk akan igt tu smuer.
Bygone is bygone.
Just to let you noe tt,ily.
I really mean it.

Don't ever leave me.I need you.

pssst

Sunday, October 28, 2007, Sunday, October 28, 2007

Just came bck from werk.Worked for full-time.from 11-10pm.
i thought i wanted to do closing too.But tk sampai hati ah.
I really miss him badly.and haven't contact him ytd.
Balek siang,can chat wif him on MSN.
A customer complaint abt their order.Nina get "maki" by the Customer,"apek".
And the aunty called nina 'Fat Girl'.
Kuang ajar sak.tsk3.
Tmrrw don't need any staffs.So i do no need to work.
Boleh rest eh.Best,Best.Heheee.
Tmrrw im having mly dance practice at 1-3pm.

P/s:jln raye on tue n thurs.Confirm already!!no changing.who cant make it,idk eh.

PsssT,i miss you

Im happy sungguh.

Thursday, October 25, 2007, Thursday, October 25, 2007

I passed my end year exam.I failed combined humanities.
But alhamdulillah,i get 4th in the class n 12th in the level of sec 3 NA.Pheeww.
Relief.Some of my friend didn't get promoted.I felt so sad for them.haiss.All
congrats to all those got promoted.Tak sia-sia aku blaja.I want MONEY.MONEY.MONEY.
When i saw my result,the first thought was MONEY.I can get bursary since i got top 20th in level.
Heee.Yesah!Happy banget aku.
Hmm.Ytd went to Vivo City wif boyfie.Hd fun.Shared lame jokes,laughed,giggling n tickling at
each other.Really Gerek.Treat me LJS.ANd he treat me back a chocolate from a Candy "sumtink"
forgot the shop name.just a bunch a chocolate cost 7 bucks.n he bought one for me.Hee.
Promise him to treat him tt more special when i gt my first salary.
Tmmrw will be our 15th months of anny.
ILY,syg.

Im going to work later.im late actually.tkper la.

I want all of u to go.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007, Wednesday, October 24, 2007

I need to update my blog,klw tk huddy bising.Didn't go to school for 2 days. Skipped the post-exam activities.Waste time je pegi.Ytd stayed at home.Computer was my friend ytd.Chat wif Huda.This girl ah.ayoyo.Pantang nmpk baju baru.shopping abes ni bdk. haha.BoyFie went to Johor ytd to Raya.so today im going out wif him.Yesah!! told me tt i wanted to celebrate our anniversary in advance since this friday i cant.Have SL course and dinner course.im sorry,dear.Im dying to see you!! Just woke up actually.haha.im going to school tmrrw laa.want to take my report book.definitely i failed my combined humanities.Confirm. Jln raye was postpone.Make it on next week.so i think i choose on Mon n Wed can? I hope everyone can make it.the more pple,more merrier. Jgn ckp malas la.tkleh laa.pls eh.I want everyone to come.

Aku penat oii!

Saturday, October 20, 2007, Saturday, October 20, 2007

Aku penat!!!!!

gggrrrrr.ytd was my first day of working..Kak eqa,nina,Kak suzi n murni worked together wif me.

Did closing.And it was a tiring day for me.Friday was busy day.Full-house.

Hmm.kekok jgk aku keje.Kak eqa n suzi said tt im a fast-learner.

heee.Tankiue yer.So tmrrw im working.do closing again.but without murni n kak eqa.

Kak lysa n efa are going to werk wif us.

My sister's frens too.

Mayeb huda & aisha too.

Reached home at 11.30pm.straight away tido.Woke up at 6.30 for SL course.

Ngantok nyer..ya ampun.Now im waiting for my relatives to come to my hse.

Im waiting......

today is the 8th day of Hari Raya.And i only went Hari Raya on the first day of Raya.

BEST eh?pathetic kn..ergghh!!

Tkper..Next week jln dgn kwn-kwn.

NExt tue n wed bole tk,kwn2?

Interview werk

Thursday, October 18, 2007, Thursday, October 18, 2007

Just came back from interview wif Nina.Murni was there too to accompany us.

Tmrrw will be my first day of working.

Bismillah.Hee.

Seram sey.Hmm.So aft my cca,straight away go there wif nina n murni.

Just filled the form.Murni told us tt the manager will interview us tapi tkde paper pon.

Buih eh..hahaa.Nina da tkot.hahaa.

Have to sacrifice my tmmrw training dance at CC for this times.

Tmrrw im not going to school.MALAS.

Come back in the afternoon for CCA.

Kawan-kawan classmates ku,korang prefer jalan raya on,

Weekday + Weekend

Weekday=Weekday

???

Kite cabot 2 days on post exam activities klw krg prefer both weekdays.

Okay?

Anything,tag my blog or tell me on MSN.

I love you

Monday, October 15, 2007, Monday, October 15, 2007

Just came back from bugis,peninsular & Fort canning wif boyFie.
Went to Bugis.Bought a t-shirt.Miss Little Neat.thought having Little Miss Shy.
But out of stock.
Puiihh!
Hmm.Had lunch.Burger King.
Then to penin.Planned to buy Superman T-shirt wif boyFie.but Out of stock.
haiss.
Proceed to Fort Canning.Chit-chat.
Its had been long time i didnt spent tyme wif him.
I really had great time wif him.
Then,HOMESWEETHOME.

ILY,sayang.

camat hari raye

Saturday, October 13, 2007, Saturday, October 13, 2007

To all my muslim Friends,

Selamat Hari Raya.
Minal Aidilwal Faizin.
Maaf zahir & Batin
Minta maaz sekirenye aku terkasar bahase.
Hehes.

Have i done a big sin?

Friday, October 12, 2007, Friday, October 12, 2007

Someone who love,care & concern about me is now gone.
I have no one else.
He dont bother about me anymore.
He dont care about me.
"im done with you"
What's that mean?
You let me go just like that.
When i think back,it brings tears into my eyes.

I am all alone.
But still i want your touch,
your voice,
your hug,
your lips on mine.
I miss that moment.
Aren't you?

When you hit mine heart & soul yesterday it hurt real bad
oh my god what am i gonna say .
I cant describe how i felt.
Only God knew it.
No one else.

I've never felt this before.
Maybe you can say that it's easy.
But you're wrong.
It's hard for me to accept the fate.

I asked forgiveness from GOD for both of us.
Asked to show me the right path.
And give me the strentgh to face everythings.
Maybe God is trying to test me since it Ramadhan month.

Dear,Im really sorry.I knew that i don't deserve to be forgiven by you.Coz i knew that im
a bad girl.I miss our moment together.I don't how u felt aft you expressed and said everything.
How you feel?You have decided to say out and u let me to free.aren't you afraid?
All i can say that hope someday you will come back and say Syahirah,i love you.
I'm looking forward to hear that.Im ashamed to face to you and talk to you.Bcoz you started to hate me.YOu dont bother me anymore.I cant do anything.I cant force you.I have no right on you.right?

I Only Have Eyes For You.Believe Me.

Finally over

Wednesday, October 10, 2007, Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Ggggrrrr!There are 3 big ulcers in my mouth right now.

Have difficulties in talking,laughing n eat too.The pain,aduh..mcm nk nangis.

I would like to announce that exam are finally over!!!!

But i'm not looking forward for this year Hari Raya.

Asl eh?

Ytd,went to Queensway.Bought contact lense wif sis & shidah.

Aft that,ika went home.shidah & me took MRT wait for the others.

Went to geylang wif her,her fren & my childhood fren,hidayat.

Knew him before i knew shidah.He have been my friend since kindergaden.

All the way to primary school.It have been so long i didnt talked to me.

All th way laughed mcm kite nyer psl.Lame jokes were made by Hidayat.

One of shidah & hidayat fren,Hafiz.I think so.Blablaba.

Break fast at the geylang pasar.Packed with many pple.mcm2 org aku

bole nmpk.Me & hafiz ate Nasi Ayam penyet.The others ate Black pepper ayam

rice.The boys wanted to go Bugis to buy something for them.But i'm not following.

Haven't study D&T.So me n Shidah went off first.

I really have great time wif my love one like shidah & my long childhood

friend.

Probably i would get U grade for my D&T.Tkde harapan.Didnt study very well.

Leave 2 or 3 questions.Yg laen aku main hentam.

Ulcers are killing me.Macam nk demam.

GET RID OF THEM.

Monday, October 8, 2007, Monday, October 08, 2007

I'm going to rid all those hurtful werds that you said from my mind.I did not want to listen anywerds that you said bcoz it will make me so hurt.So i decided to get rid of them from my head.
So that nothing will get worst."Masuk telinga kanan,keluar telinga kiri".But don't worry.Bcoz i still took some werds as my lesson.Even the past,i said that i would remeber all you said badly about me,but now..Im not going to do that.It will get worst if i continue to be like this.
You wanna change to the old one so that you can hurt my feelings easily.You said that i broke with my ex bcoz he did not know how to take care of my feelings.BUt you said that you're wrong.It was
the opposite way.You said I'm the one who did not treasure and take care of his feelings.That's really bad.Really really bad.
Im not that bad,okay.But don't worry,dear.
I've forgiven you and did not want to remember what you had said
about me today.
And yeah.thats it.
Bio paper was over.Left D&T.must score high.hmm.Hari Raya is coming.Somebody b'day is coming too.
I do miss you.I really do.
ILY.

I miss her

Saturday, October 6, 2007, Saturday, October 06, 2007

3 hrs to go before break fast.
No one at home now except me.Alone.Parents & ika went to
Sheng Siong.Kak nirah went to Geylang wif her BF.Aku kt sini
sorang2.Ayoyo.Left with two papers.Bio & D&T.Aft that,enjoy!!
Ytd changed the skin.Cant edit that much bcoz i have to do my kuih.
I didnt checked.My dearest Huda & Sirin complaint psl blog aku.
Alermek!!sorry uh.aku tk checked sihh.
Huda,aku tk tau mcm aner nk edit the font.mcm biaser eh.help me.hehes.
Sirin,i will change them soon,aite
I miss Izmariana Bte Abdul Rahman.I really miss her lot.Terribly.Haiss.
She went dissappered just like that.Leave us a big question.Where have
she been gone?How is she?What is happening to her?Oh my!
i missed our moments together.
I missed our time.I missed our enjoyment together.
I missed we shared our problems together.
But everything is gone now.
GOOONNNEEE!!GGGrrrrrr!!
I decided to look for her at Bedok end of this year.Fortunately,
i remember her Bedok'hse.How i wish i could hug tightly and tell her
that me include all my friends miss her like hell.
She left us with nothing.She avoided us.She was trying to run away from us.

Izma,all of us knew what is happening to you.If u read this,please contact anyone of us.
we need to know what is going with you.im going to continued to find you.
aku tk nak sia-sia ni smuer.& the moment that i could not get rid of my mind
is that u r one made me n izzul become as what me n him go through now.
Thank You,Izma.I love you.

I miss you

3 more papers to go.

Thursday, October 4, 2007, Thursday, October 04, 2007

Maths paper 1 over.tmrrw will be our maths paper 2.Will be more difficult than paper 1.

Did the question with a smile on my face.haha.psl senang.Except came to last 2 question parts,

stressed.Didn't study for that chapter.didn't study gradient & box-whis.Abes laa..

Really hope that i could pass them.please..alahai.left maths paper 2,bio & d&t.

And im done wif all the papers.

Aku tk kire jgk.aku nk kerja b4 raya.eerrgghh!will have my 1st interview next week.

Huda,confirm dgn aku tau.aku tk pakse kau nk keje kt ner.maner kau suke,kau pilih je.

Hmm.

Later i will meet my mum at her werk.Bukit Batok Fire station.Civil Defence.at 2pm.

followed her to Sheng Siong BP.Shopping for kueh's ingredients.This year,not going to do

as much as last year.Tk mahu membazir.

I need money to cut my hair n buy contact lense.Sape2 nk kasi aku duit?heehs.tk tau malu.

This month wil be my busy scedule.Work,dance practice & student leader project.alahai.

Boleh mati aku.

3 more papers to go!

HELP!!

Wednesday, October 3, 2007, Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Chemistry paper was over.Done.Can do it except section C

Gastric.Go home.Boil hot water.eat maggi cup.Cannot take it anymore.
The pain is killing me.Batal my puasa.Drank a cup of plain water this morning.
during sahur.thats why i have gastric pain.took pain killer.No changed.
Errgghh!sakit nyer!

tmrrw maths paper 1.must study.give my best for tmrrw.bismillah.phheew..
Hari Raya is coming.next sat.Haven't prepared yet.
10 days to go b4 raye.
papers finish in 1 week times.
I want to work!!!!

boom!

Tuesday, October 2, 2007, Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Had Combined humanities papers.Geo & social studies.LAst mins revision.
Slept at 12 midnight.woke up at 5 for sahur n continue my revision until 6.
Showered n get changed.Geo paper must be easy,i think.BUT!Social studies is
the easiest.I hate SS.but i have the confidence doing it.Geography made my brain
wanna burst!BOOM!haiss.hmm.Stress la sey..Boleh putus urat kt kepale aku.
Have 30 mins break.used the times to study geo.Sat at one table.Bf n i joined
murni n huda.Then the rest came.SMuer da kanchong.Da stress.Da bising.Da kecoh.
I did not gave my full attention doing geo paper.Tired.Sleppy.Finished paper early.
Slept for few mins.After school,wait for him.Then go home alone.He cant stand with the weahther.Sunny and bright.So told him to just go home.Do something at home.

2 days ago,talked wif Shidot on the fone.Tok tok tok & tok.Da lamer tk borak eh.?
hehe.
Shidot,hope tt ur mum recover soon.Raye da nk dkt.suwo die cpt2 baik.haha.
Hmm.Aku nk tlg kau uat cookies can??hehe.Aku msg kamu,asl kamu tk reply??
Eessshh.see u soon aite.