today seems very long day for me.
sleepy & exhausted.

CCA ends late today cos efa gave lectures to us.
haha & i liked very much! serious.i enjoyed that part.
BUt my legs were killing me cos im having legs cramp due to the 2.4 test.
legs were shivering & i tried to endure the pain.
i hope after this,all the dancers will change for us.i mean for our sch.
im hoping to get silver for the SYF.
its all depends on us.if one or a few of them still repeating the same mistakes,
that mean,there's less chance to achieve silver.
I pray hard nothing bad happen to us.
i hope everything will be going smoothly.

we left 3 more days to practice to make it perfect & nice one.
next wed is our big day.
& i hope SUP will accept our request.
*pray hard,people*

tmrrw & thurs,there's Adam Khoo Workshop.
ends at 5pm.no lesson for the whole day. BEST!


Nabilah,i believe you can do it.
All you have to do is to give out the best & be confident.
Dont repeat the mistakes.
& please cheer up.
don't be emo.
thanks.
haha!


& i believe in all of you,MLCS dancers (:

Im back!
nabilah missed me.hahaha.
chalet at Costa Sand resort.
yesterday i dont enjoyed tt much cos firstly,i was supeerrrr tired & sleeepyyy.
secondly,the place was crowded & lastly some people who was not invited came
& joined e fun.irritating oi.espically one of my cousin.
you didnt fork out anything for this party & suddenly you celebraye your b'day
togther with the 2 birthday boy & girl.
this b'day party was specially for my two nieces.
k.whatever.sakitkn hati jer.


ikaa & i were late for e party cos we had CCA in the afternoon.
there were 3 cakes.i was in LOVE with the design of the cakes.
but i only took pic of one of them.
at 10 plus,my family decided to go to Changi Beach.
One of my dad's friend had pit & doing fishing .the place was at carpark 7.
seriously,i cannot get to sleep.my cousin who is 6 months pregnant & her husband followed us.
we asked her to sleep inside e tent.she insist to sleep outside & watched dvd.
blablabla.they were sleeping except my dad's friend.left me.
i cant sleep.so i torn almost 3 am.
when i woke up,big sis & my cousin with her husband were not thr.
i found out that my dad's fren saw pocong,black figures & white dog tt morning.
she could sense it & told us the area that we were staying actually was their place.
no wonder my cousin leave the place.
buurrrrr.fortunately i did not see anything although im having my period.
at 7 morning,leave Changi & came back to the chalet to help them packed the stuffs.

After this,i need to sleep.
cos i am really tired.
yesterday after tutorial,went home straight.
slept from 4 plus till 11pm.
everyone was asleep.had late supper,watched american idol & use pc.
i was up till 3am since everyone asked me to sleep.
k fine.but still i couldnt get to my lalala land.played games in my hp until 4.
woke up as usual for sch.

First of all,congratulations to Panther cheer & dance group for becoming the
champion for this yr .
second was cheetahh.Hey! no bad uh nabilah.hahaha.
& third in place was Cougar.i was hoping they get second but it turned to be very messy
due to the AVA system.something wrong.i felt sorry for them.
after the sports day,had our dinner at LJS together with sirin,nabilah,erica,aisha,murni & fareez.
Proceed to cck park to chill.only nab,me & sirin.had short nap,singing session,danced & flirt with each other.haha.k stop it eh.
Before we left the park,we went to toilet since i need to pee.
i was the only one in the cubicle.blablabla.i came out & saw two of them standing outside e toilet.i was told tt there's a man using the girl's toilet.tt mean just me & him inside the toilet
he came out from the cubicle & quickly face down cos he saw nab & sirin in the toilet.
its either he was so urgent till cannot tahan & maen shoot je msk or purposely do tt.
Nabilah went to check the cubicle & saw water all over the floor.haha.kes shoot the btol nie.haha


985 made me crazy uh.waited for so long.
i'd packed my beg already for the overnite chalet.
i wont be updating unless my cousin bring along her laptop.

okay,i really need to go now.



im sorry,people.
i need time.

Went to BB polyclinic.
i was given 1 day MC.
doc said i was too stress that caused migrane.
sounded very serious eh.but i have to pay for 1 medicine.& it cost me 70 cent.haha!
the waiting time was less than 45 mins.this was my first time i waited for my turn not more than
an hr.usually,i have to wait 45-60 mins.
then nab gave me a called after i paid for my bill.talked otp with her.
she got jealous when i told her i was msging with 3 pple on the same time.
boy or girl?! hahah.
blablabla.msg-ed zai.asked him to accompany me to wm to have my lunch.
met him.& we have alots of things to tell uh since e last time we met was last week.
he will be going to NS soon.& im hoping he will book out on Good Friday to celebrate
his b'day with the rest.
Zai,make sure u call me once a week so tt i can listen to your scary stories.
took bus to BB fire staion.i was late.parents were waiting for me.
off-ed to jurong east.
we went to Makan Shiock at Jurong.they grabbed some foods to eat except me.
Nab,dont be surprise eh.aku tak mkn even drg ajak . pfftt.


yeah! chalet on weekends!
im excited.

wa xiang ni,----- -----

I think i should go poly for check up.
my migrane is getting worst.
tkleh carry seyy.

wait.mum is calling me.
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tmrrw im going to cck poly since bb poly is under renovation.
Then,MAYBE i will meet Hudy to accompany her for job interview at Ubi.
then will meet up with mummy to accompany her to CPF building.
she will be turning 55 this may.
i know she may sounds so old.
but she looks younger.hehe.mak aku jgk.
general,for my age,i shld call my mum 'grandma' isstead mum.
haha.akward seyy feeling die.
even she's getting older,i find tt she is a strong women.
she is role model to me.
i admire & impress of her.
i swear,
i love you,mum..

i skip sch today.just bcos i had migrane & slight fever.
woke up at 10 plus.made a breakfast for myself.
watched tv.played comp.
then off to sch for cca.
whatever,nirza.
i broke my promise.
haha.i danced!.even though nabilah & sirin asked me to rest since
i looked pale,i ignore them & enjoyed e fun.
but for a short one,bcos i lost my mood due to this person.
i know,you know lah.
soorryy sirin.you will be alone again tmrrw.
tis time im really sick eh.bkn malas!



are you satisfied after what you have achieve?

bad headache since yesterday.
afraid something wrong with me.
kk.tu da over. i think i have insufficient sleeps.

mood swing.i raised my voice each time i felt irritated.
okay,i really hate my fucking attitude.
i think,period is coming soon.shit.

i havent mention my overall common test for previous term.
i failed my comb.humans..but e rest of the subj were satisfying except my english,maths.
sch reopen.& this time me,murni & kimo are sitting on the first row.
kimo was shocked with the new sitting arrangement.
i told her we decided to sit infornt so that we can study & concentrate more.
padahal the sits were all taken.geez
no choice uh.

currently chatting with Ahhbean.she's busying loving me.
aaww.ouh ya.last sat i had just recovered from fever & flu.
& this cutie nabilah cooked me chicken porridge to make feel better before we start to pract.
The porridge came along with a packet of tissue & a kit-kat.
when i knew tt she bought specially for me,i missed our past whereby somebody always
bought me a choco.the last time someone bought a choco for me was last year july.
after tt,all the time i bought one for myself.heee.
btw,thank you Nabilah. aku sayang kau.

i have been receiving his msg.
he's askign me stupid Qs.
sorry dude.i have move on.
& to be truthful i never thinking of you.
i think you must have read my blog.
all those words are not refering to you.
i dont wish to start anew life with you.cos i cant tolerate your nonsense.
i cant tolerate your attitude.
you are so protective till i dont have the freedom as a teenager.
yo are far away protective than my parents.
please get over this,muhd rashidie.

syf is in two weeks time.
*nervous*

CCA was cancelled on friday since Cikgu Azmi went to watch his son's sport day.
best nyer dpt bapak mcm gtu.my parents are not like tt.
the one & only reason they gave = keje or malas =.='
booooorrriiiinngggggggggg.
so the sec 4 dancers skipped malay tutorial.every fri we have extra class .
& we dont have to attend cos we have syf this year.so we were given excuse from the class.
but when we found out no cca,we still dont go for the class.
what we did was,sirin & i went to Bugis to bought some stuffs.
& had swensen ice-creams.treat her since she had used up all the money.
went to bpp.bought some stuffs again.
actually my intention was just went to bugis bought ONE stuff
but before that,i went to withdraw some money.
after that,i found out that i had more than i expected inside my act.
that's why i bought more than 2 stuffs that day.
i had great time with bestie.
all we did for tt day was "1,2,3..Smile (: "

sirin,more pics will be at my multiply.

I still have to pay the balance of my hp bill. 155 bucks.
who cares?i will wait for my March pay then.
2 more days to school holiday.then, i can go work meet my cliques,outing with friends,
CCA,eat & sleep. =.= ahhhh! tu jer lahh aku tao.
Our SYF will be on 8th April.the first sch on tt day to perform.
im looking forward for our next upcoming dance practices.
i wish to improve myself & help the others with the dance.

i dont wish them to be apart.
maybe i will just let them settle themselves.
i wish to see them togther but i have no choice.
i dont have the rights anyway.
guys,please do it for yourself & your partner.
think about the others too who have helped you guys in ur r'ship.


Maybe people think i ni mcm paham.
padahal kes ni samer mcm dulu.
her reason was like mine.so i understand tt girl's feelings.
im here to give them support.
i don't want them to end up like me and tt person.
you will regret. & yea.i did.
so,please treasure tt person who have changed & sacrificed for you.
espically when they get rid of his ego from them just to be with you.
you're lucky,girl.


i dreamt of you.

oh my! my legs are aching now.we had our SYF rehearsal at UCC just now. after sch,we changed to attire & waited for our bus. in the bus,we had fun by playing pantun.Supandi VS Nabilah & efa.But nabilah the most gave it. it was so funny,i tell you.i had their videos.hahaha.i will upload them later. we were given 2hrs of using the stage. overall,it was okay.but our first practice with the song was quite messy. eventhough we were given the position cos the stage was so dark. All of us were so tired at end of the practice.we end at 6. ride the bus & we had singing sessions with them espically sirin & nabilah. reached sch,changed & ate macaroni goreng.tk sedap uh but da lapar punyer psl.. murni had her 2nd round.tsk3.saper yg gemok skg eh nabilah?
i will upload some last sat pics.
Dancers! if u would like to get the video,you may come to me & get the video tmrrw. :D nowdays,its hard for me to get rid of that things. whenever i went somewhr & did something,it will remind me of something. i will get frustrated with myself. pfftt. This term i did quite good for all my test papers.I passed all the subject. tts include Maths & Bio.hahah.BIO uh! unexpected seyy.

Aiseyman!!i have been trying to upload the videos since 8.30pm.

Don't be surprise if u see my eyebags.
cos its getting worst.i swear. ):

i just came back from clementi.
Lucky there were 2 small kids in the house.
they entertained me & made me smile. thanks babies.
i have insufficient sleep.
Last Friday i slept at 2 plus am.& woke up at 5.30am for work.
i have been working for 9 months & this was my first time work at 7 on weekend.
Mum & big sis was shocked when i told them i have to wake up at 5.30am for work.
They did not believe me as they thought i was joking with them =.='
i thought i would get sleepy at work.but i was wrong.i did not yawned for the day.
worst still i dont feel sleepy.super hyper lahh.
i have my own reason.i was freaking super happy & glad to get the news from a friend.
then i rushed to sch.as usual,CCA.but tt day ended early.
lepak-ed for awhile with sirin,nabilah,efa & sulaiha.
promised my cousin to sleepover her house to keep her accompanied.
but i changed my mind.i decided to follow sirin to town with Miding.
so i followed her.Nab took the same bus as us.
ouh!before that.i was otp with my sis,& she told me something.
i was totally confuse uh.& tt thing suddenly changed my mood tt day.
from cheerful girl to quiet & innocent.*OUUMM* Innocent eh?
k dah eh.seriously,i could not get rid of tt thing in my mind.irrating tao.
mcm kene sampok gtu.haisss.
i sat alone in the bus since nab berkepit dgn sirin dari tadi.so i gave this jakon
little gurl chance.tk perna nmpk sirin lawa.hahaha.
while waiting for miding at the int,i dont feel good.tk sedap hati gtu.
apologised to sirin & told her i changed my mind again.
im not following them.accompanied her till miding arrived.
took mrt.stupid 3 mat reps.mntk kenal2..puiihhhh..nk buat kwn.go & erase ur tatoos on ur body first.pakai eraser tao.kk.aku lame.
it was a tiring day for me.& i slept late on sat.almost 1am.
idk wat's so difficult to close my eyes.i forced myself.turned left & right.
stared at ceiling & look up at the sky.
there you go,i could feel the feelings are back.
again,i woke up at 5.30 for work today.
i yawned 6863232538274 times this morning.
i worked 10 hrs today.my break was only 30 mins.pathetic kn .


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nabilah,the pics i will upload other days k.

I have been skipping my dance practice at CC for 2 weeks.
its not tt im lazy.reached home at 6+ cos i have CCA.
Every Friday ends early but i find it a tiring day for me.
i yawned alot of times during CCA.My mind was telling me to end the practice early so
that i can go home & sleep before i go to CC for my another dance practice.
I told myself to come to the practice since i skipped the last week one.
byk lahh nk dtg.my mum woke me up before magrib.but i jolly well continued my sleeping.
tsk3...setan tu.
i woke up & my lil sis was not at home.she leave me behind.k tkper.


mum is sick now.i hope she recover soon.
for the past few days,she was coghing non-stop.kesian nyer mak aku.
even though she's sick,she still do her duty as a wife & mother .
she even cook bubur durian for my dad.
yumyumyum.im going to get some later.(kater je tk suker,tap mkn jgk)


huddy cheat my feeling.she told me tt she's coming to sch today.
ader lahh aku excited to meet her.pfftt.

Usually i reached,nobody at home.but today i was the 3rd person to reach.

I found out tt alot of my friends had broke up with their gfs/bfs this month.
suuiihh isit?
k whatever! Nabilah had told me about a teacher who kept pornogarphy cd in sch.
wtf?! disgusting plus ugly sak.tsk3..ya allah! tk senonoh nyerrrr.
please dont ask me who is that t'cher.i had promise nabilah tt i wont say out the name.

today,i had ss test & english oral in class.
i was the first person.blablablabla..i got 9/12.
i talked a few things but got high marks.hehehe.
mdm seng was very generous lahh.tts why.
Huddy is coming to sch this friday.she wants to take her N cert & meet my instructor.
regarding his childrens.ni kes afiq nie.confirm sah!
& i saw erica & her mum this evening.erica is getting slim seyy.
she is! omg..murni asked me why the people who leave the sch are getting slimmer
but those who repeat are getting fatter.the answer is easy lahh.
we eat alot when we stress.
we eat during free lessons.
we eat twice in sch.
& the foods are cheap.
but erica told us she's getting thinner cos her mum dont give food to her.
hahah.lek je boal.mak die da kat depan die.


i felt that she had changed to be e old of me.
&
they remind me of my past.


be strong,dude