sometimes, it's hard being strong. like, i just want to break down and cry. but i can’t because i have to keep myself together, in order to keep others around me together. it’s hard when it feels like i have the world on my shoulders and i feel like there is nothing i can do about it.there is no one i can turn to who can help me carry it.
Each time people ask me to move on and hope my future jodoh will be like arwah khairil, i got so emotional and cried. To me, it a sensitive topic. I do not know how,when and where it will happen. But i leave it to ALLAH s.w.t cos HE knows more than us. Hmm. I have the feeling of paranoid having someone special in my life. I'm afraid what if i lose him again like how i lost Arwah khairil? What if i have only few years with him , and he leave me? I lost everyone i love. Ya Allah, Ya Tuhan Ku... Kau panjangkan umur baba, mama , kakak and ika.. Berikan mereka hidayah dan iman . Kau murahkn rezeki mereka. I will always for their goods after i had my solat. Indeed sepanjang hayat hidup hirah.
SubhanaAllaah no matter how good things get, if you don’t have Allaah, you have nothing. things may seem like they’re going perfectly and you may be really happy, but if you’re not pleasing Allah, there will always be a void there just yearning for His love/pleasure. if you don’t have Allah, you have nothing. That happiness will never be enough. Nothing that happens will satisfy you. You’ll always want more. Always. if you want real happiness of both the mind and the heart, seek Allaah’s pleasure. The rest will all fall into place on its own.
