Yesterday was Allahyarham 40 days. Kenduri tahlil was held at his parents place, bedok. That was my first time stepped into his house. At the same time i was nervous  cos i knew that the stuffs tt i gave him, he hang on the wall. I mean like the picture frame. After the kenduri then i entered his bedroom. Walked and looked around. I saw the picture frame in the plastic bag. Papa should have removed it from the wall. He removed that except the card i gave him and pictures of him and his lil bro when they were small. I was speechless when saw the card i gave him 2 years ago, 2010.. The card i gave him randomly and he paste it on the wall frame. Thats so sweet of him . I bet all his family members read the card too. Then i found the box i gave him that contains the origami hearts for our 1st anny. Sebak hati pada masa tu.  I dont know what will happen to the stuffs that i gave him. Should i accept it if papa return back to me? Dilemma.
I'm thankful and syukur with my condition right now. Alhamdulillah.
Oh,i cried during the kenduri and right after Tok Bah end his surah. Yes,i cried so badly till busu came and consolled me. To be honest, hirah dah lamer tk nangis kerana arwah. Everytime i think or miss arwah, i remind myself not to cry and sedekah kan al-fateha. But when i was at his place, everything was different.

We all thought we would be together forever but somewhere between all the arguments and the laughter, we realised that maybe it isn't meant to last forever, that we are meant to move on to become the people we all know we can be, to follow the dream we have set ourselves. It is the time what we all remember what we have been through to get to this place, the people we have known,helped and had help ourselves. These are the memories that last a lifetime, So maybe we wont be in each others presence forever, but we will be in each other hearts forever and more.
Muhammad Khairil Bin Muhammad Nizam , trust me i wont forget you. Sekiranya jodoh hirah datang dan mendapat pengganti  seseorang, khai akan sentiasa di hati hirah. You will always be in my hearts and daily prays. Masa akan tiba pada waktu yg sesuai. Hirah berdoa dan minta khai akan jaga dan lihat hirah di atas sane. Insyallah, your family is part of my life now. Indeed i love them like how i love and treat my family.
Al-fateha :'))