After one month, im back blogging now. Furthermore there was someone in the Formspring asked me to update my blog. And so.....Since i'm having fever and skip my dance training, i decided to update my blog. Cos after this, trust me i wont have the time to even switch on my laptop. I've been busy with work and dance EVERYDAY. It's really tiring, i swear to GOD. Been working morning shift and rushed for dance training in the evening . Its either in my school, ITE Bishan or at the Cairnhill CC. We're preparing for the MUARA 2012 that held at Esplanade on the 6th,7th,8th JULY 730pm. The performance is at the outdoor stage facing the sea. SEA?! haha. Or river? So, please do come and watch me. I will be dancing under Perkumpulan Seni ^^ People around me said its good enough to make myself busy and occupy my times during school holiday with activities. But, i need a break too. School holiday means break and free time. Sadly, its not what i expected cos this is the time i want to spend more time with friends,family and my second family. But hey, this is my passion. My life. My everything. Something that can make me release some stress and tension. Especially when you're dancing, you can let it out your feelings through every small details steps. It really work, trust me. Selagi ade niat & nawaitu yg baik, insyallah ganjarannya akan memuaskan. Insyallah.
On the 18th June 2012, the 100th day had passed. It was 100 hari permegian Allahyarham Khairil. So i excused myself from training and came down to Sengkang. Before we started on our kenduri/religious feast, I accompanied Mama, uncle dedel, and zur to Royals Cafe, Late khairil's workplace. We chose and ordered some fingers foods and cakes.Then, we rushed back home. Tok Bah and the rest waited for us at home. So after recite everything, not only me cried. Mami, mama and Zur cried too. I think we have the same feelings at that moment. During the kenduri, i tried my best to control my emotions. Remind myself to stay strong and dont cry. After reciting the DOAs and Surahs, i went to take wuduk and perform my ishak. I was alone in the masterbed room. I used this opportunity to let it out all my feelings,cried as much as i want. Cos in that room, there were only Me, Allah, and Arwah Khai. Wallahualam. Hirah percaya dia ada disisi kami sekeluarga pada masa tu. Being with my second family is a blessful moments.. I wont ask that much from GOD.
Finally, i managed to let you know that i'm afraid of losing someone who is so special to me. The urge of telling you and the courage..... All these time,I used to let you know through whatsapp. And now....Thank god, i told you when you were there by my side. Telling you how insecure am i...tearing at the same time.. Weak for another lost and so on.
Muhammad Khairil Bin Muhammad Nizam, i will always pray for you. Thank you for everything mister. I miss you badly :'(
