Emotionally breakdown. I don't know what makes me in tears. Crying badly when your response was like after I told you something. Isit wrong for me to treat my brother lunch and I'm doing that on the behalf of late Khai. He wish to dine in at swensens but he went so soon and didn't get the chance to do it.. I knew that I didn't give you that much on your birthday. Just a cheesecake and album full with your and our pictures and messages. Sound so simple but I put so much effort on it. I put all my love to it. I made it sweet and meaningful to it. Yes,that thing is just few dollars. But the value and sentimental of that item is high. Sungguh bermakna & special to me. I'm just disappointed with your reaction . It seems like you don't treasure and appreciate what I got for you. Promise is a promise. I really don't want to break any promise to anyone. I promise late khairil, but Allah loves him more than I do. And I promise myself that I need to do something so his wish can be fulfilled. Yeah,I'm really hurt right now. What I'd done or said that you treat me that way so sudden? I thought you could understand and be there for me. Sigh. Do you even realise at this timing I need you the most? Im stress over dance training and work. Body just couldn't take it. I need those motivation and moral supports from you. Without stopping. Gosh... More tears flowing now. What else I can do? Do you know how worried am I..... I've been busy with dance and seriously I feel so bad that I don't have time for you. Im scared. I feel like I'm pushing you away. And when I push you away, you will start to feel different and change your mind. Ya Allah, I couldn't imagine if it really happen. I'm trying my best to have some little time for you though I myself don't have time to take a break. How I wish I could just vanish in the world. The world is getting more preessurise.