Its wednesday!
Maths UT later at 430pm and have Beats Encore training later.
Idk if i should go for the practice. i do not have mood to do anything.
Like right now. Just completed on my maths revision for like 1hr but..... i only managed to do some.
Mostly i skipped them. Seriously i'm so gonna fail my maths module.
I can't focus everything because i'm still worried about my r'ship.

Last night i decided to go for 2nd attempt to text him. "Bismillah" Press the send button.
Hoping to see him reply that can make feel better, at least lah . But all i got was kinda disappointing. Really. I was totally down to the max.
Idk what else he wants. Idk why is he doing this to me? why must he dragged when actually we can discuss and stop all this. but he prefer to avoid me and the problem. All he need is he need more time and want to be  alone.
i believe this problem is not really that big matter. But he's doing it as one and he punish me by doing all this.
But why? I didnt do this to him when he made those mistakes which were worst than this.
I'm begging..Don't go on like this for so long. Anything can happen in this few days. Don't make me wait for you. Don't make me wonder. Don't make my life miserable. Don't make me lose concentration in my studies and dance. Dont.....
IF.... If he want to leave, i will definitely let him go. This shows how much i make his life miserable. This shows that he is not strong enough and give up easily. No point arguing about this when he have already make up his mind.

But at the same time, i pray this won't happen to us. We have been going through alot of shits together, and i still believe that he's still love me. All i need is positive mindset.
After this, i won't try 3rd attempt. I will just wait...
and i will cry everytime i think of him. Everytime i saw his pictures. That's all i can do kan to lepaskan my rindu for him.
damn. I promised myself before this not to cry if i blog about this. sighh. I just did,

At this time, i need him badly. Hectic week for me as i have exam UT, dance training with live music rehearsal, IG in school. this will last till next week..i need the motivation. I need his words to make me go for it.
How i wish he read my blog and know what is in my mind and my feelings.